worth1 [wurth] Show IPApreposition1.good or important enough to justify (what is specified):advice worth taking; a place worth visiting.2.having a value of, or equal in value to, as in money: This vase is worth 12 dollars.3.having property to the value or amount of: They are worth millions.4.excellence of character or quality as commanding esteem:women of worth.5.usefulness or importance, as to the world, to a person, orfor a purpose: Your worth to the world is inestimable.6.value, as in money.7.a quantity of something of a specified value: ten cents'worth of candy.8.wealth; riches; property or possessions: net worth.
What does it mean to be worth something? To be worthy?
Of love. Of support. Of understanding?
From our family. From our parents. From our partners? From our friends?
Is it realistic to base a person's worth solely on money? Does that feel right to you?
Or can it be based on their potential? Their ability to love? Their ability to see what doesn't work and decide it's time to change it. Or a myriad of other things people might never notice…?
Is it right to limit a person's future because you cannot see what they see?
At what point… does a person take a stand and say,
"I wish you understood. But ultimately, it doesn't matter. Because I do."
I've been recently told to lower my expectations. That I dream too big and my ideals are unrealistic. I've been told that because I've made steps to be happier in my life… that I'm no longer worthy of support by the people I thought were closest to me.
By the people I thought would support me, unconditionally.
I've been told that, based on my recent decisions, I'm no longer deserving of going on my trip to Georgia at the end of the month. And I'm deluding myself if I ever think Pendomus could be something.
A month ago… this would have been devastating to me. And while, their words hurt, I know this person is wrong.
We have different philosophies about life.
To me, the unlived life is not worth living.
But because of that belief, I'm insane. Probably chemically imbalanced and need to be checked out. Because no one… no one in their right mind, would change their life if it wasn't working. I have children. How can I only think about myself?
I'm being illogical.
Which is funny, when I think about it. There are many things I consider myself to be… crazy, may indeed be on that list… but illogical isn't one of them. (seems like a paradox, I know)
To this person, should you read my blog: I love you. But I don't agree with you.
Ultimately, we have to do what feels right in our own lives and that's not narcissistic or uncaring.
Sometimes it's feeling the fear and doing it anyway. It's being the change you wish to see in the world. It's leading by example and not expecting others to follow.
Whether or not the people closest to us understand.
Whether or not… they ever understand.
What is happiness worth to you?