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Monday, June 18, 2012

A Beautiful Lie

Sometimes, I wonder if I'm some freakish anomaly.

When people completely support me, telling me the things I think I want to hear… ("You can do it!")

… *sigh* … It's when I struggle most.

It's like there's an internal switch that goes… "Oh. Well, I guess I won't surprise anybody by doing ______."

And truth be told, I loooooove to surprise people.

Probably because I love to be surprised.

If there's one thing that doesn't happen enough in this world, it's surprises.

At least, not in intentional kind.

Since setting my deadline to finishing the last chapter - I have worked on it. But I haven't finished the edit. My goddamn deadline of finishing the whole enchilada (meaning, the ending) by the end of the month still holds… but I've been regrouping. Reorganizing my brain. 

I realized my notes for Pendomus where one big cluster of snarly-gnarly crap. Along with my folder on my desktop. So, I did what any sane person would do… I took a day to reorganize.

I looked at a bazillion notes. A bazillion and two folders. Nine-thousand pictures (no, not really that many… yeesh!).

Evernote is my brain.
But I DID listen to close to 150 voice recordings that I'd taken of myself… rambling on like a lunatic. (I swear, if I say "obviously" one more time in a recording, I'm gonna shoot myself.) I've regrouped my entire list of stuff, separating it into manageable packets of information. I've even instilled the help of Evernote.
Mindnode rocks the
brainstorming scene!

(What can I say? I outgrew pieces of paper and an excel spreadsheet. HA!)

With Evernote, I can organize my thoughts more effectively and find them at quicker speed. Whoever invented that program is a GENIUS! Combine that with MindNode Pro and I am in BUSINESS!

But… that still leaves me with this looming deadline and at least 2 1/2 chapters to rework/rewrite before July 1.

So, with that in mind…

Could someone tell me it's impossible, so I can get on with it and prove you wrong??


Sherry Adrian Dumpprope said...

I cannot tell a lie, but I will say it would be IMPOSSIBLE for 99.9% of people to do what you have already done with Pendomus. To me, you've already surprised me (actually astonished me) with your ability. And sorry to say, it is not only possible for you to finish that sucker - it is impossible for you not to! That book will haunt you all the rest of your days until you set it free. It's only a matter of time! ;)

Just think of the surprises in store for the whole world once you do release your work - and get on with astonishing the world!

Carissa Andrews said...

Awwwww… Thanks, woman! I hope you're right. :)

TL Jeffcoat said...

Well, I'll tell you it's impossible. Only because I can't wait to read it. You must be one of those rebellious types who need that push to get going in the direction you really want to go instead of the direction you think everyone wants you to go. Sherry is right, it will never let your mind go free till you've set it free.