"If I hadn't made me, I'd be more inclined to bow."
It's time.
Time to remove the unnecessary barriers and be myself again.
For the sake of others, I've remained distant. From Twitter, from my blog... Sometimes, from those closest to me. All because I wanted to ease them into the life changes I'm making... Trying spare the feelings of others because I understand that changes can be hard.
That time is over.
It seems, no matter what I do, it's not good enough, anyway. They're hell bent on searching it out and making problems where there were none, so here goes nuthin'...
My life these past few months has been AMAZING.
Say what??
Those of you who've been keeping up on my infrequent blogs (that will be changing soon, too) are probably aware of my divorce.
What you may not know, is despite the mess that goes with it…
I've had one of the most profound people I've ever met enter my life.
He's been a shocking surprise, waking me from the crazy haze I've meandered around inside for so long. There are no words to properly express how much his presence has affected me. He's brought light into an area of my life that's been dark for more years than I can count.
Yet, the circumstances of our "sudden romance" are less than appealing to some of the people around me. They can't wrap their minds around it.
First, timing. Yes, I admit it's not the best. But neither of us expected this. It was never meant to be anything beyond friendship. We weren't expecting what we found in each other.
Second, we met on Twitter and because he currently lives in England.
"How could I meet him online and think I know him? Or be willing to have him enter my "real" life? Why would I be willing to take the risk?"
I get those questions and concerns. I do.
But for me, I've always lived my life according to a very simple rule: Be adaptable. Be open.
Life is NOT about standing still. It's about flowing with the changes, the challenges that life gives you. Life is an adventure, meant to be embraced. As adults, too many people stick themselves into a box; unwilling to change or acclimate to anything new. In part due to fear.
And what purpose does that serve?
If you can stop, look at fear logically, it's usually just a roadblock to getting what you really want. Sure, sometimes, its purpose is to get you out of danger and it should be taken seriously. But I'm talking the abstract, "WHAT IF", fear.
Why is it everyone can ask,
"What if he gets here, and you can't stand him? Why would you do it?"
but not
"What if he gets here, and you're blissfully happy?"
Because EITHER are possible. And I'm not gonna know until I've tried.
To those who are upset by this change; I'm sorry this isn't easier for you. I truly am. If there was a magic wand to wave, I surely would do it. Because each one of you deserves to be equally happy. But one thing I will no longer do, is stand idly by and take the brunt of your unhappiness.
We each have a choice to be happy.
I've made mine and I will stand proud behind it.
